Some days are heavier than others. We wake up hoping for calm, but life’s waves bring emotions we didn’t expect. Today was one of those days. It began with a text reminding me of a loss I carry every day but feel even more deeply on certain anniversaries. The weight of that memory opened the door to others—memories I’ve tried to keep locked away.
As I went about my responsibilities, trying to keep myself grounded, an old wound began to surface. Images and feelings I thought I had buried came rushing back, uninvited. Memories of betrayal by someone who was supposed to protect me filled my mind, leaving me feeling overwhelmed, ashamed, and vulnerable.
I wanted comfort. I reached for food, for conversation, for connection. Yet, nothing seemed to fill the void or quiet the pain. The shame I felt kept me from fully opening up to friends or loved ones, even though I knew I needed support. I cried, I felt disgusted, and for a moment, I wondered if I’d ever feel whole again.
But even in this darkness, I’m trying to remind myself: this is not the end of the story. Healing is a journey, and moments like these, as painful as they are, can be stepping stones to growth.
Finding Light in the Dark

Acknowledge Your Pain
Pain doesn’t make us weak; it makes us human. It’s okay to feel it, to sit with it, and to give yourself permission to grieve. Suppressing emotions only strengthens their hold over us. Instead, by acknowledging them, we begin to take back our power.
Seek Support Without Shame
It can be hard to say the words, but leaning on someone you trust can be a lifeline. Whether it’s a friend, a partner, or a professional counselor, speaking your truth can lessen its weight. Support is not a sign of weakness; it’s an act of courage.
Ground Yourself in the Present
When memories of the past overwhelm, grounding techniques can be incredibly helpful. Focus on the present: take deep breaths, notice your surroundings, or engage in a comforting activity that brings you back to the here and now.
Embrace Self-Compassion
The shame and disgust you might feel are not yours to carry. You are not defined by what happened to you or how others have treated you. Treat yourself with the kindness you would show a loved one going through a similar experience.
Take Steps Toward Healing
Healing is not linear, and it’s not something you have to do alone. Consider reaching out to a therapist or a support group that can provide tools and a safe space to process these emotions.
Moving Forward
Some days will be harder than others, but each day is an opportunity to heal a little more. The past cannot be changed, but how we respond to it and care for ourselves in the present is entirely within our power. You are worthy of love, peace, and healing—not despite what you’ve been through, but because of your strength in surviving it.
Remember, you are not alone, and there is no shame in seeking help or simply taking time to care for yourself. Healing is a journey, and you are deserving of every step forward.
If this resonates with you, know that there are resources and people who care. It’s okay to ask for help. It’s okay to take your time. And it’s okay to simply feel. You are enough, just as you are.
For more immediate help contact support services Below
RAINN (Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network)
Hotline: Call 800-656-HOPE (4673) for confidential, 24/7 support.
Online Chat: RAINN Online Chat offers live, anonymous assistance.
They also connect individuals to local resources and counseling options​
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